damn regret

its still vanessa. i'm gonna wait for her, no matter what. like i said in my previous blog, J can never, never be V. sorry Jolene, what i asked you during school hours was just a bet with my classmate. sorry i didn't mean to do this. i thought things would get better and ask at the right moment, but my friend, NANTHA KUMAR... placed a bet with me. so i'm sorry. and i see no meaning now. cus after i sent that msg, vanessa called. and the feeling was never fading since the day we broke up. i'm not trying to like chicken out with excuses after being rejected. but its the truth. vanessa said something that made me felt like i've made the biggest mistake ever, damn regret. now shes attached. (who ask you to not contact me long ago, i thought you found someone)

anyway, attended cleon's theme party, it was a very successful one, congrats cleon and class! and on my way home, i decided to walk as i saw my bus drove past me at the traffic light. 2 dogs started following me, like they're gonna attack me. fuck, i quickly crossed the road and took a bus home in the end. super scary please. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.